stormyhotwolf88

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/stormyhotwolf88

Unfortunately, Photoshop crashed on me and I lost almost the entire picture when I was almost done. So I'm a bit too distraught to draw anymore atm.

So since I had gotten this Ustream account I PLAN TO USE IT :D. If anyone wants to watch me do a commission tomorrow, I get home about 1:30pm from class so I decided that I should start the stream about 2:00pm EST. The stream most likely will be for quite a while so if you get home about 5, I should still be working on it. It'll be fun, and I hope to converse with who ever shows up. the URL is http://www.ustream.tv/channel/stormyhotwolf88

because I don't draw explicate things, there is no password. I'll post again on dA, FA, and Lj few minutes before I'm starting.

So I've been going out with a pretty odd Sag boy. I hear they are known for not able to commit to anything. Being a cancer, that can be a problem since we are like, COMMIT TO ME! MARRY ME!!! and all that jazz. I know because I've been talking about marriage since month 2. I have Cancer in my Venus as well as my Sun and Mercury so I'm a pretty strong emotional being and can't deal with short term relationships. (we've been going for 2.7 years)

Before we started going out, I did check the horoscopes on how to deal with him to make him happy. I had the intent to get him wrapped around my finger. Somewhat control and not want to leave me. Why? cause I'm female and I'm insecure LOL. I thought this would be a challenge because of him being a Sag. He was the first Sag I've dealt with as I had a long string of Gemini boys (each as bi polar and neurotic as the next) and one Aquarius (Was selfish and wanted my attention ALL the time and fought with ALL the time). (most of my relationships last for a year or two)

I started with caution, not sure if he was going to do anything against me. I couldn't figure him out and yet he was too good to be true. When I first met him, both away from home, hundreds of miles away, he was really really quiet. Almost Unemotional and he always had this furrow look that intimidated the weak heart-ed. I immediately went to work to get him to talk to me using my Gemini girlish charm that makes most guys respond to my command. I'm an Aquarius rising if no one knew X3. Anyway, the conversation got deep. He started with, "Do you believe that relationships were just about sex?" and I looked at him like he was weird and said "No" He nearly jumped out of his skin in excitement and I felt that I might have something good on my hands. So we started talking about sex and I found he was a virgin and never had a girl before and I'm thinking, oh boy I could rock this guy... The next night I believe away from home, We were at a massive comedy show and he was holding me close, I noticed his body was saying he was attracted to me. And I looked up at him and he looked at me and the tension to kiss roused up. I thought to myself, if he kisses me he's like all the other guys I dealt with. He then stopped and looked at me, guilt came over him and he turned away . I smiled thinking.. whoa, he respects me. He later said that: yeah he respected me and also realized that he had just met me. I knew I had to pursue him which I NEVER do.

Almost Unemotional and he always had this furrow look that intimidated the weak heart-ed. Getting to know him, he's pretty crazy and spontaneous as I was. I mean, I'm very good at distracting people XD. He would tell stories of the dumb shit he use to do when he was a child like running into walls and how popular he was until he became isolated in private middle school.

Though what puzzles me is the commitment bit. In the years that we've been together, He's done absolutely nothing wrong! Am I just pessimistic and bitter about all my last guys? Comparing to him and realize he's the best thing since sliced bread??? I'm his technical first girl, I took his virginity and hell, I taught him about swinging and I tried to test him out and see his reaction to other girls. Both girls, he could not get the means to screw either. I was flattered that he could only get it up for me but my attempt to flesh out any hidden characteristics have failed o.o. I mean I seriously landed THE ABSOLUTE PERFECT GUY. I'm ecstatic and finally feel like I can let myself go and become just as obsessed as he is to me.

He could tell you everything he loves about me and knows my layers like no one else. Perhaps I do this because I don't trust myself?

to further my point, He's super romantic. I mean he never misses the chance to open the car door for me, I gave up on paying for myself because he's quick at getting his wallet out first, He loves taking me out on dates, he's a beast in bed, He's taken me to Rome, he took me ballroom dancing and we've explored our relationship in ways that many our age are too immature to do together. We love co-op games that require a lot of communication and challenge each other in some games. He loves the fire I have behind me and I love his cool nature, quick wit and reliability. He makes my heart flutter with random text messages of poetry. I can't resist him. I can't. but why do I hold myself to do so? What's holding me back???

He's Sag rising, Sag sun, cancer moon, sag mer, scorpio venus, pisces mars

Have you ever woke up and thought that you were nothing too special? Everyone seems to have some kind of imbalance that places them apart from others. They think of crazy things that you could never even imagine.. or even tried to. You are too balanced... strong minded enough that no one needs to care for you. You take great pride in your Independence... but even with what you know, you are stuck in a situation... waiting for time to finish toying with you. Yet, with these strong qualities, passion doesn't grab on to you. Nothing that one would claim genius. You are just as good as the next person. You know where you stand. You wish to be the brightest, most aspiring in your field. Whether it's in the lights or in a cubicle. You are pretty, nicked named Gorgeous by your lover... but you know you are not the kind that society dreams of. You come to terms..

There is always someone better then you.

Yet the angels protect you. Why would they?

I wonder.

My own presence has changed the face of my family. both good and bad.. My grandfather quit drinking so he could be around me more. My Auntie Jackie clung onto life as long as she could to see my cousin and I grow. My sick Aunt Cathy began to speak again because she wanted to hold me.

I then escape certain death, with a voice telling me it wasn't my time before I went under. Tell me why I'm special enough to be protected? I largely don't believe in God. Yet his/her name escapes my lips more lately. Have I realized something that most have not? I'm a meant to do something that could potentially alter history?

And then to tell me that Azure is my gift from God. What am I to think? procreation? Unless there was more to that that I'm missing besides the emotional letting him into my heart.

Plain and simple.. That is all life needs to be.

I wonder how life would have been living in a small tribe of people. Human culture had created a bubble where the thought of living in your own skin is unnatural. Everything should be synthetic, to the lips on your face to the boobs on your chest.

Copyright, Pop Art, hip Hop. Infringement at it's core. stealing ideas. Concepts of new, are only remixes of old. Does no one know the difference between parody and down right stealing of ideas?

Numa Numa- Taken
Work it Harder- Taken
Fire and Ice- Taken
Technologic- Taken

I hate Pop Art. Andy Warhol died about 5 months from my birth. Maybe he knew I was coming. He was afraid of the hospital.

So was Eric.

The shadows that followed where ever he went. A vortex of Misery and Drama surrounded him and engulfed those he touch. But I am protected from him. He taints me and then it flows away.

bad things happen when your hands are idle...

I am bad. I get bored. I am incapable to destroy others. But I can sabotage myself.

I could kill him.

but I can't.

I wish I could do more damage to my potential killer.

Who did Eric kill? My heart.

Cold? yes. I can be. But why do I listen to commands like a dog.

A puppet I feel. Mans ultimate toy to ravish to his liking. Toyed with a fucking SOCK. I could tear him a new one.

but all the blood drained away. Nothing left by a small will to survive... Body not responding well. Thinking the best way out. No one could save me. No one could hear me. Teeth aren't sharp enough to go though thick cloth.

I'm not ok. I just want to know... why am I here? Is it only because I hope to have a life with Azure.. Suddenly I have a question that my own sub conscious can't answer..


Honestly, I have no idea what my brain just typed out LOL

yeah.. today is a shut down day. I feel like shit. My private life is shaken up, and money is an issue but I start my work study soon. I'm glad that my work study is trying to get my papers along as fast as I want to and I should be starting that job real soon. Hooray to 117 a week.

But I'm also bummed because yesterday and the day before I've been cleaning out my PC to make room for the updates for photoshop and After Effects. Photoshop updates fine on both computers but then when I try to update AE on the PC, I can't because it requires a minimum of 1G of RAM. My PC has a half a gig of RAM and the ma>

lol I know that I don't have many friends on LJ since I'm not that active lol. I do use LJ mostly for community posting lol.

alright, I've noticed a lot of spam coming from this one site called www.myhotnewcrush.com and its gettign on my nerves. I don't know if I had gotten e-mails but I've gotten them on DeviantArt, seen them around youtube and now I'm getting Bots over AIM IMing me directly to my well known account. If it was only one time, I'd shrug it off but I've left my computer on for a weekend and had 8 seperate screen names IM with "Oh someone has a crush on you!" just this morning I woke up with two more. I keep waking up to like 2 or 3 each day. I'm getting pissed off. It's obviously a scam site because it's a one pager without any good webcoding apparent or even a demo of what they do.

And god forbid they are using screen names that belong to people like what use to happen on MSN when there were attempts to spread harmless and harmful virus'. These people could very well lose their screen names and if they are and if they are bots, that's a helleva lotta screen names being wasted that other people could have used. i hope each of those screen names get erased and available to the public -.-

God.

Life is stressful.

I decided I don't wanna be an adult ¬.¬

6.6;.. but I know that isn't going to happen cause I screamed this when I got my first period... oh 9-10 years ago and my call still hasn't been answered..... fucking angels, fucking growth hormones

O_o; i thought the giraffe from toys r us had like some kinda anti-adult beam or something where if you chant it like bloody mary good things happen oppose to chanting bloody mary before a show and someone throws an egg into the talent show...

my fucking ride is coming to an end and it starts with my 21st birthday. The day I've been waiting for since I hit 18 and realized they jipped me.... but I also realize that 21 is a jip too.

I went drinking last weekend and threw up my dinner violently and now my eyes are bloody (my left eye is filled with blood up to half of my iris) for the next two weeks. doc said i just busted some capillaries so it should heal.. yeah 21 -.-

-.- usually I'm better with drinks but that drink knocked me on my ass..

damn I'm cursing... Because I'm hot even though my air conditioner is on. If I was speaking, my New York accent would be coming through too. The slow tough one.

Sexuality is another thing. From what my friends tell me, Ganador changed me. I'm not entirely too sure to the extent I've changed to them. It's a little disheartening when I see my gay friends especially getting to sleep around with much regard to their bodies because I'M not allowed to do so for a couple reasons. Just because females get the label of slut doesn't mean I can't label some men too of the same -.- I'm sick of hearing certain guys sleeping and cheating around, over and over and over again!

Though putting that off to the side... Why can't I just be friends first to guys? Why do they have to feel me up to see if i'd fuck them or not??? damnit, I got fucking molested on the dance floor by an italian in rome! WTF >I</i> don't get? Supposedly, I'm pretty to other people, but I just don't have the desire to: always look nice, take care of my hair (which still confuses me), break my ankles to walk in high heels... I'll dress up for occasions because those are the times I want to stand out but.. sometimes I just like to blend in... besides.. I like it when my boyfriend's jaw drops when I dress up for him.. If i do it on a daily basis, then he'll get bored lol.. I guess I just can't do the popular thing, nor do I think I want to.

Like, i have friends that are kinda popular... but when i have them over or something it's like.. what do you want to do? Since I find out that they don't like video games and looks at you as if you got 2 heads O_o;... that's embarrassing and makes me feel like a nerd. Does growing up mean forgetting about imaginations of other worlds, Throwing away that stuffed animal that makes a nice decor on your bed? then devoting all our time about talking about petty drama and getting into other people's lives... I mean wtf is with Drama on TV news of OMG BRITNEY WAS SEEN WITH PARIS! just wtf..

My mom is a great example. She's turned fashion into a competition with her peers at work. WTF. >.< WHHYYY...

Am I a tom boy or something?? IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME THAT I DON'T GET IT.

Speaking of stuffed animals. Most of mine are in the attic because I have/had asthma and they didn't want the dust from their fur getting to me. I've only managed to keep....::counts:: 6 and 4 are from within the last 3-4 years. The Doberman is 6 years old and was given to me by an old crush who also gave me the inspiration necklace you all may have seen. If i ever sleep with a stuffed animal (usually when I'm missing Azure and need to hold somebody) it's usually him because of how big and soft he is... but he can't replace my boyfriend. The Raccoon is 15 years old. He has ALWAYS been my favorite stuffed animal.. and yeah hes been on the floor a lot.. but hes always somewhere near by. I haven't played with him over the years but to hell if I'm ever giving him up. He's like.. my most sacred possession and there are just somethings I don't want to let go.. yeah.. most of the stuffed animals in my room have stories..

I wonder how many I do have in the attic... I think I have a neon colored cow up there.

::sighs:: I'm tired... So I'm going to go finish reading... see ya..

This is mostly for the Long Island furs and any of my friends.

I lost my Cell phone and need numbers :/

You can note them to me on DA
email me at jadestorm88@aim.com
message me at StormyHotWolf88 or Jadestorm88 on AIM :3
Or private it to me over facebook

thanks

I got in today! yay! and now have 9AM-9PM classes tomorrow X3 and 12 to 9 today! but it's ok. But I got shit to do so i'll c ya.

Ok, I'd be lying if I said there was nothing wrong. I'm like slowly being enveloped by my own woes and into a bit of a depression. ::sighs:: I'm just not happy to have an extended vacation... Ugh..
i don't even think I want to hear myself talk at the moment... -.-; I'm just having a shitful time with my school and student loans. I'm angry with my parents and I feel helpless on what to do. For one, making me go all the way to school, spending 20 bucks on travel to beg to get in to school. I didn't know I didn't need to talk to my financial Aid officer on whats going on. If all my fucking mother wanted to know was if I could register then WHY THE FUCK DID SHE MAKE ME TAKE HALF OF MY DAY TO BE TURNED DOWN WHEN SHE COULD HAVE PICKED UP THE GODDAMN PHONE AND CALLED INSTEAD OF EMBARESSING MYSELF!? I'm honestly thinking of asking for a refund of my money since I don't have money to spend on wasted trips! For god sake I don't have a job at the moment! ya know, I'm standing there in the kitchen trying to tell my mom what happened cause she asked and she keeps cutting me off and commenting and I feel like a dumbshit. Ya know, I'm not suppose to be worrying about my fucking tuition! Now I have to wait for the check to come in and it has to be here before the 18th or I can't even get any fucking classes at all! I'M SO ANGRY! I'm wondering if I should just do it all myself and get my parents involved when need be. I hate hearing my mom also. She ALWAYS has to raise her fucking voice about something. I just. ARGH..

So now I'm stressed out to no fucking end, I can't even color right. -.- fucking just shoot me.

I'm in a good mood.

I just got a new job, Azure visited me this weekend cause he knew how stressed I was, I won a bet that earned me 10 bucks and Azure bought Pokemon Diamond for me. I've put in a lot of hours so far into my new job that after my next paycheck, I'm going to buy a new DS to replace my old one that got stolen. I dunno what color I'm going to get. My parents also gave me the ok to buy a car for myself. I dunno what I should get X3

When I get more games (especially a couple wi-fi games) I'mma make my friend code public :3

lol yeah... here I am, again XD. Actually, it was my time to come down. Az has been runnign back and forth up here almost every two weeks. ::sighs:: what a nut job. He's at school right now and it's 2:30 now... he should be on his way back. I totally fooled around today. Drew like 4 pictures. 3 for Armonkyi and one for Rabbitia. Both art trades. Well, it was on my to do list. not exactly my homework todo list but what ever. I kinda do wish i had like a month or so to just do that. all my homework and shit just to catch up. I don't know... -_-.. ::hugs her stuffed animal::

Az and I want to move out of our houses pretty badly... We already have like nessisities to survive except moolah (well, he doesn't really know it yet but I have some stashed... but it's too early to me). He's getting annoyed at his parents treating us like 10-15 year olds. I don't mind it as much. I'm just tired of my mother's temper and her mouth. It's going to happen soon... I'd really like it by my own senior year... He'd probably be in his freshmen year of his transfer school by then though.

----------------------that was my draft from last month

So.. today is Easter. O-M-F-G, lols. I was supose to parade around my job in an easter costume. Wasn't happening. Didn't have the nerve to do it. A wolf in a rabbit suit is just.... weird and wrong. I left early cause it was a little slow from my end. So now I'm home... grandparents are here and Az is still at work. Hopefully I can hold onto some food from dinner for when he gets here. My period is here so I'm also not in the best of moods.

The day before was fun cause Edna called on if i wanted togo to Belmont racetrack cause the fair was in town. I had always wanted to go to it. Though it urned out to be a bit of a rip off eben though it was fun. 5 or 10 bucks for parking, 6 bucks for admission, 25 for an arm band of unlimited rides or buy individual tickets that were almost worth a dollar a ticket. It was crazy. was so stupid that we had gotten 25 tickets and the four of us, me best friend and two siblings got on one ride, there wasn't enough for a second ride. So we didn't stay long. It was also getting really cold. Though I got o see this strange animal that kinda looked like a badger and had a long tail. it was nocturnal too so it was quiet active. I also saw a 6 month old hyena and three pig races. Josh (bestfriends little brother) won the last race we saw :3.

I finished my animation final. I have to composite it now but I still have my anatomy final and some storyboards to do. 3 weeks left of school...

Yesterday was pretty interesting too. Right after I got off from work and my mom ordered flowers for her mom, my bestfriend, mom and I went to get our nails done.There I met this nice lady that had decided to engage in a conversation with and once I told her my working conditions, she asked me if I wanted to work for her. I was estatic and accepted the offer so tomorrow is my interveiw. so tomorrow afterwards Az and I are going to go shopping.

I also got a call from Eric yesterday. He just wanted to tell me he could beat me on heavy mode on stepmania. (it's DDR but with your fingers) His highest score was a B but I can get AAA so I think I can take him well... Dispite him, I got him to agree on a double date on Weds. I hope his girl agrees with it. It'll give Az a chance to talk to him if he doesn't mind talking.

So yes, this is what is going on inmy life ATM. check ya later

Hey guys. Ya.. I know I didn't tell about the dream... it's been a month now, so I don't remember... My mind still isn't clear. I can't seem to focus correctly or manage my time like I could before... I mean I hate to say it, I love Azure to death, but it's that maternal instinct side of me that keeps changing my direction to him. I really was hoping to stay single until after college. But then I wonder... what if he came into my life just in time? Ya know? I mean... I'd still be messign with Ganador even though I don't think it would have become anything more then fuck buddies... And Ganador was trying to get closer to me and talk me into moving in with him when Azure came around. He also promised he would let everyone know about me too... Which ment a lot to me... My relationship to Eric is finally at rest.... I can honestly see him as a friend now. Fox.. is Fox :3

Although, I have to figure out how to get myself to think clearly again and focus. Plan and prioitize. I just... want to procrastinate... Ya know, when I was single, the only one that ever called me was Edna. My best friend. (Though I know, I realize that I'm more of a second best friend to her...) and it was good.. ya know. Yeah there were people that liked to talk to me, but if I had something to do, I easily put an away message and get ot work... I got a lot done... Did I mention that I hate working when my mom is home? yeah, I can't do anythign when she's home. everytime she wakes me up adn gives me chores to do, I roll back to "sleep" and wait for her to leave the house. She just makes me so nervous.

bleh.. today we had a bit of a fight... partially cause I had a bad headache from my dad's car... it smelt of something weird that suddenly the lights from the light posts were hurtting my eyes. Odd.. and even when I looked away.. the pain stopped a bit but was still bothersome.. So.. we get home... and mom tells me of things we have to do today. I'm like.. O_o; No i can't, I got homework! (TWo storyboards, which I'm still workingon... I'm actually stuck on the last part for this one...) So she goes off saying, you know it's not right to stab someoen int he backliekthat andI got pissed off cause I did help the last two nights and I got rid of shit inmy rooma nd really my room is the other room left besides my brothers... I'm sorry I got a lot of shit that I don't know what to do with -.-;... So I yelled backa a bit cause... my head hurt and I didn't feel like hearing her fucking screeching. So I'l like sayign whatever to get her out of my room.

I'm not happy with my Graphic imaging course... It's definately a Graphic design course( I was hopign we'd be ina computer lab or something working on photoshop) but one for...ideas I guess? I don't know.. the assignment is a bitch and I have to write an essay cause I missed the first class accidentally. Now you and I know that i will not get to this essay.

Oh um.. I'm in the Miss SVA Pagent... yep... Stormy's in a beauty pagent. go figure. HIV/AIDs awareness themed no doubt... So I have to do an animation on that... I'll do something quick like a 5 second commercial or something... Sadly, I'm not into it. It could give me a break on my tuition... but at the same time It could fuck up my thoughts on how I look and how I value myself as a person. It could frighten me enough to withdraw from the competition. w00t... But it also makes me wonder if I really should do a modling career right out of college to establish myself... Azure seems to like the idea.

Whatelse.... oh! Azure's Mother and Aunt are comign up to see Azure's sister perform this weekend and she's usign the opportunity to meet my parents! Soooo... the last couple weeks my mom has been going crazy fixing up the house for them. Thus the argument from today. I'm excited course... the art show is also up at my school and I can show them everyone's work up there... w00t w00t.

that's it for now... I'm tired lol... night.

Hey, oh yay it is Dec 18. Azure has been here all weekend and yesterday was his birthday. He turned 20 :3 the night before that which was saturday night, we went to a chrismas party my company held. It was nice... I foudn out my boss was leaving and giving it to one of my co workers who is currently the co owner. Go her... I'm just not fond of her husband... but oh well. I don't really care, just that I kinda wish my boss wouldn't leave. I guess it's kinda a loyalty issue with me. I'm sitting here in my animation classroom... it's nearly empty besides two other people. A friend I concider preety close sits next to me talking about Santa killign people? yeah ok lol... Azure left to see his sister and my class starts in two minutes in the other room... yay... I don't want to go cause I was going to work on my project durign the weekend but I've been so busy with my mate all this time.... I dont' do well when my focus is scattered.... especially when I'm a bit of a perfectionist... Sadly I'm not that much with my own art... Poo... it's 4:31... What am I goign to do? we've supositely have been workingon this project for 3 weeks.... So confusing with a loose assignment... I know I must had failed at least one of my classes... At least I'm taking graphic imaging and Global history next semester... Always been good with History... We'll American history best... and taking this course a second time since my 9th year in highschool shouldn't be too bad... right? I need to work on the rest of my commissions so I can get more money... there is at least 30 bucks owed to me currently... I'm gong back to New Jersey Wedsnday to work on my 400 dollar commission and hopefully finish it WED night, THUR,FRI and SAT morning... I'm only geting 200 for the rest though... <<... where is everyone...? my teacher is here.. but the whole department is like nearly deserted... type spooky man... ::gets up and unhooks her laptop from the wall and walks to her class, the clock saying 4:38. Upon walking in with her laptop agaisnt her, she sees almost all the stations of computers taken up by people, not all from her own class:: hm.. ::sits at her station and hooks her laptop back up:: mmm... Even though there are people here... it's still very quiet... I hope it doesn't get much active though...

Lately I've been thinking about Ganador. Some might know him as Ganadorrex. or Flashdust. Ya know, Spunky's mate. If they are still together... Last week he had been trying to romance me, tellign me how much he missed me and such... trying to pry open my heart, probably to get me to open my legs to him... I'm very loyal to Azure, I don't care how good looking this guy is... besides.. he intimidates me like a wild black stallion.. I've been confused with him since I've met him... I'm very good at picking up body language and knew, this guy did not respect me. Nor did he plan on keeping me for long. Afraid of commmitments. A man of the highway, Always on the go, unable to be tamed even by the most beautiful of women yet confident to be able to take any women he chooses... (Obviously, if you know me, I'm usually the one who has a pick of the litter.) And frankly, this is how it should be, woman picking the male. I'm not a full out feminist or anything, but it's a little obvious since the female has to allow the male to enter her. See a clip by Bill Plypton with the male trying to get to the female on the top of a mountain. If you want the best sex of your life, do it for her, not for yourself :3 but anyway... Ganador... yeah... lately he's been trying to get to me and the day before Azure got here I think, I told Ganny off via AIM. I was Skyping with Azure and Ganador started to try to call my cell phone sereveral times because I wouldn't pick up. ::sighs:: So I soon picked up and Ganador and I started fighting. Azure could only hear myside but her was cheering me on... I told him to forget about me and that I've used him for sex while I was single last year to keep my own hormones at bay. It's kinda true, but not entirely me thinks. Cause I did wanted to see if this relationship could go somewhere... but wouldn't you be bothered too if you were kept from the world as someone's dirty little secret? yeah...

So anyway.. last night I had an odd dream... it involved a lot of trains... and me trying to get home on the long island rail road but... I don't know.. Some reason I think it's best to draw what I saw... I'll get back to this, I'm awfully tired... as soon as I tell my teacher how much of a pathetic loser I am because I didn't do my project i'm going to go meet up with Azure and his sister... I'm such an idiot... can't keep myself on track anymore... I'll tell you my dream either later tonight or tomorrow... good night for now...

Lol, this has been a very interesting weekend and week.

My friends invited my mate and I to go bowling. We had fun. Azure was killing those pins and my best friend started calling him "Killa" XD. then I forgot my call phone at the bowling alley and Az and I went to get it since I tried to use it cause we were following my friends and they left us at a stoplight lol... Half way going back, I found out my friends went by themselves to get it cause they saw we weren't behind them and called Az's phone from mine. We ended up going to white castle since the beach was closed case my friends were like... we want to see the pretty building XD. Azure was like, "Your friends are on crack" XD

For one, I though it was ironic that my job decided to have me work 14 hours in two days lol... Thank god for weddings and other celebrations... but it was still ironic lol. We were going to go swimming afterward but the pool was closed o.o; So we went to the Cheesecake factory :D Course they lost or reservation and we had to wait longer XD. but the food was orgasmic :D

The next day was sunday. after an 8 hour shift Azure said he got the adress to this furmeet we promised to pass by so I could give my commission to Neko and recieve payment :D. but he didnt print out directions. And my printer has no black ink. So I tired to send it down stairs through the LAN. but it didnt work and I'm like wtf? So I tried to bring up the directions from the basement computer and I found the internet wasn't working suddenly. So I'm like wtf? I checked the shared computer and it's share name had changed and I'm like wtf? So we go upstairs , its like getting to be 6 o clock now and we're both like nooooo! So I called Cubbi, a fur that lives near me for directions. I wrote them down but it was hard to understand him. But ya know, we got everything in the car, got to the furmeet, got my money, and went straight to Baltimore....

Well, not exactly straight. We got thirsty and hungry and stopped at a pitstop where i realized.... I forgot my purse al the way at home.

How did I do this!? Well remember when I was screwing with my dads computer in the basement ? I put my pocketbook down cause I sat down cause I was getting annoyed. but we are halfway from NY so ther was no chance in going back.

basically, as soon as we got there the interviewing started :3. We watched brother bear II and then I slept in my own bed... and happily bounded to the basement to cuddle my wolfenkins up the next morning :3. I went to school with him :D then we were going to go to hot wings ight but his friend didnt do it cause they were saving up for a concert. So he took me... well we walked cause we didnt feel like taking the car, to this nice resteraunt and I felt like I was being watched o_O; . Later we went to the mall next door and I bought an obsidian arrow head and string and made a necklace for him ^^. We walked back.. played videogames and watched the lion king where we both fell asleep together accidentally XD.

So the next day We spent all morning together and went to his school round 12 and after that we took a tour round baltimore and wet to the science museum and played with the toys! :D! This is where I found my actual height is 5' 3 quarters XD I dont even hit one inch! LOL so after that we walked around the dock and got ice cream :D Then we got lost again trying to find where we parked the car XD. I got a little frustrated following him and told him exactly where we left it XD. (oh, forgot to say. We got lost the first time coming home from his school then we got lost trying to find the science hall too :3)

Then we met up with his best friend Scott who threatend Azure to skip work and visit me a day early. Nice guy. He's proned to get bullied by me though o.o;... the three of us then went back to Azures house and played smashbrothers lol.. Az and I were dominating XD Scott started winning toward the end lol... We then watched this whole thing of hentai clips that someone dubbed over into funny skits. Then Scott left 1 or 2 am and we fell aleep again ^^;...

Next day was the wednsday I was supiose to go home... whixh didnt happen since I didnt have my wallet to buy my way home. So I went ot school with him again. His first class was early and the second wasnt till 2 so we walked around the campus, layed on the grass then hung out in the car in the back seat. Talking about our relationship an such and he became really upset that he wouldn't see me for a while cause of both of out crazy schedules. Which course was very touching. As soon as we started making out though XD ::coughs:; I swear, we weren't going to do anything, his class was in 15 minutes. But this guy stopped behind the car and kicked us off the lot XD. Azure stubbled to the front and drove off and i was like wait x.x; what about your class!? So I convinced him to go back and that I'd give the guy hell if he keeps us off cause he had to go to class. WEll we got back and found, we lost his schedule ANYWAY so we didn't know where the class was. So that was like well .. damn. But I was proud of him that he went back anyway. So we wandered to his ole high school. and he showed me the woods and is little secret place within them near the river. Of course he walked the woods bare foot XD.

So we went home and we hung out in the kitchen a bit figuring out what to eat. Then went down to watch Pocohantas which he started sleeping on lol... I then went to bed.. in my own bed this time XD but course, I woke up before my alarm went off and bounded down the stairs to wake up Azure :3. Lol he hugged me real tightly in his sleep x.x; but we soon came upstair s and fell asleep together on my bed XD. Lol his mom said we both looked like love sick puppys XD. So I got to talk to his mom one on one as she drove me to the train station. ::smiles::.. his mother was funny, kept comng back to make sure I was ok.. I gave her a big hug.

So I had a great time XD and thinkI left a fairly good impression on his mom. She said that shes was happy that I brought some happyness to Az since he doesn't smile often which I could tell since the very first time we met he didn't smile ^^; So to hear him laugh more was great. I'm glad...

IIIiiiii am soooo bored at my internship. There is nothing to do online, Fur affinity is down, probably getting attacked by hackers. bleh -.-; piss me off in my time to try to get my name out there. but the good thing is that in the first week I attracted 53 watchers! :D I have three big commissions. 1 that's going to earn me a year subcription on DeviantART. Yay! I'm working on a huge commission my mate Azure gave me. I fixed the drawing to be more anatomically correct. But I realized... I'm afraid to color it XD. How stupid am I XD. Well it's mostly cause I'm unsure of the planning. Need to figure out exactly what I'm doing with it. Course I want it to be beautiful lol...

::yawns::

-_-... So tired.

mmm... school starts soon... I know I'm going to be stressed. I'm already using my "vacation" time to do pictures for people... Hoping that on top of the commissions that the requests and art trades will let more people know of my existance.

Yesh! I am open for Commissions! With the help of my handsome and smart mate Azure, as my personal manager, We are going to get myself off the ground so I can get my life more together (and I'm not starving for having to pay my monthly pass just to get to school). Check out my DA account for more info.

Having no internet sucks lol... Something is either wrong with my computer or my router. I can't seem to connect yet my dad's computer connects just fine. (dammit) I'm keeping up a bit though with people and working hard on a couple animation projects for Silver Sky Studios and Stretch Films. I'l learning a lot and I'm very greatful to be in both places. Thank god for ipods doubling as a external drive, I wouldn't be able to show off my .movs online. (I do think it's funny that Apple is taking full advantage of their ipod phenomenon) It's definate that I'll be getting a mac lap top in the near future. Either I'll buy this used one from a friend fot 600 or I'll just get a whole new one that has the intel chip in it. It might be better if I do though get a new one. My dad said that If I can come up with 600 bucks, he'll pay for the rest. Then I'll set myself up for selling my art and hopefully get some webspace and create a whole portfolio site for myself. Yeah... that would be cool... So yaeh,I'll see ya when I see ya :D! bye!